catch me if you can, but it really shouldn't be hard!

haha the title has nothing to do with what this post is about. mwahaha. tonight we had family over for dinner. it was pretty fun. the dog of course went crazy once the boys got here. but all in all everything went pretty smoothly.


i realize that thirty years from now, when i am 49, when i look back at my life there is going to be nothing to be impressed about that is unless i change things drastically. i have nothing of importance. i do nothing of importance. i am nothing of importance. i have to do something to  make myself a better person and something of importance. i just have no idea of what to do to make things better. and i have no idea of how to go about figuring it out therefore i am lost in life.

fire and ice

when you talk to people you shouldn't you're playing with fire
when you talk to those you should you're playing with ice
and in this case when you're playing with ice it will suffice
when you talk to him it makes me ire

the difference between water and flames
can mean the difference between wretched and neat
for in the end he will still cheat
and you just another one he beat

every time you talk to fire
you end up burned
no good comes out of it for you
if only things were learned
it never changes

but some day the fire will bun out
and the ice will melt
but until then are we all left
to deal with the burnt and frozen heart

hmm a dreary day of sorts

so as it is raining today it has been really dark since i woke up at 5 am this morning. so it would seem that the sun will not be making an appearance today. i think that for once we actually need a little bit of rain! it is really shocking, i know. this summer has been nice so far there were even some days where the humidity would have put L.A to shame. alright well i may be just exaggerating on that one just a little bit but it has not been that humid here in londonderry in a really long time. seeing as that i live in a pretty high elevation (not as high as say colorado but still high) it doesn't seem to get humid very often so it seems worse when it does because we are not used to it.
i would think seeing as we live in a high elevation it wouldn't get hot. which i don't understand because they say heat rises so why are the mountains always so cold? i love the warm weather but if it gets hot and humid it is rough. the air feels so thick.

offensive

why is it that most of the things that i say end up offending someone in my family??? the things i say are not meant to be rude or anything like that but they always come out sounding rude and it makes me feel like a big jerk! whenever it happens the person always gets mad and makes a big commotion out of it.